i'm so sorry

this website totally rocks...go there and you will see what i am taking about...http://www.sorryeverybody.com/gallery/1/

i am also sorry that sometimes i am forced to realize that friendships don't last forever. they take work and sometimes people don't take the time to make them last. the thing that is even more weird is that the further you get from someone, the less you think about them, but the sadder you are when you start to think about them and how close you used to be. some things that have happened to me lately have got me thinking about this...nothing lasts forever i suppose.

yea

so i got weighed today...i have lost 40.6 pounds since june 17th!!!!!!! woohoo...i am so happy. everyone at work is calling me skinny and asking me how it feels to be thin. i honestly don't know what to say to them, b/c it's actually kind of embarassing, but in a good way i guess.

anyway, travis' leg is getting better too. jeanne took out his stitches on saturday and the site is granulating in nicely to close the area. yeah. my mom held him tonight so that i would change the bandage instead of bringing him into the clinic tomorrow and he did great. he didn't even move. i was able to clean up the site a bit and then put on a nice new clean bandage that looks good. that made me happy. he is also getting more frisky by the day so that makes me feel good too.

i'm also happy that this damn semester is almost over! i'm also going to the world's largest disco on nov. 27th and i got a killer dress and shoes from the salvation army that just scream homecoming 1970! hehe i'm so excited. i also bought a super long hair wig that looks 70's also. the disco is going to be loads of fun. i'll post lots of pics from that event!

that's it for now...peace out...

squamous cell carcinoma...eeek

so travis, my scottie dog, had surgery last tuesday to amputate his dewclaw. it was all big and red and draining pus and the nail was all funky and curved. jeanne, one of the doctors that i work with did the surgery and i was the technician in the OR. everything went fine and i took him home on tuesday after work. since then he is walking on it really well and even going up and down stairs on it! he has been taking buprenex twice a day since tuesday too to help w/ the pain.

but when i went to work on saturday (11/6) another doctor, leslie, that was there when jeanne was operating on travis pulled me aside and told me that the histopathology report came back on the dewclaw. the histopathologist said that it was squamous cell carcinoma (a type of cancer) and that we didn't get clear margins with the amputation. so the options are to go in and take the carpal bone (P3) out that connects the dewclaw to the carpus (paw) to get a clear margin, or to leave it alone. travis will be 14 years old on march 1st...and he is very sensitive to pain. going into surgery again would not only be an even bigger anesthetic risk, but would be very invasive and painful. with him doing so well now and being as sensitive to pain as he is i think that we are going to leave things alone. the cancer hasn't spread anywhere else...we took a chest x-ray and leslie said it looked good and he seems ok otherwise.

so i think my mind is made up...we are going to leave poor travis alone. i have to talk to jeanne about things on tuesday when i go to work. she is going to take off the bandage and check out the incision and put a new one on. we have been doing bandage changes every 2 days since the day of the surgery and the paw has been doing ok. so yeah. he's doing good now and we are going to live day to day...

on a lighter note...i'll post a picture of travis soon with his leg bandage and e-collar around his head (so he doesn't bite off the bandage). he looks cute...

hi again...

sorry i haven't posted in a while, but the horrible outcome of the presidential election made me think of my blog, so i decided to post...

first of all, john kerry still rocks even though he lost the election. people in the united states are really nuts...people believe all of the crap that Dub-ya puts out there about morality and terrorism...the only thing he is going to make happen in the next 4 years is a formal draft and attempting to overturn roe vs. wade. actually he may even accomplish the overturning of roe vs. wade now that he has practically all of america entangled in his web of lies and deception...4 final words on this...we are in trouble.

to put a positive spin on this post...i am now up to 35.6 pounds lost since june...i am so pleased w/ myself...
also...barack obama won by a landslide in illinois and this shows a bit of promise for the democratic party. also, Dub-ya cannot run again. so maybe obama or hillary clinton (yea...she is my homegirl) will run in 2008...only time will tell.

so for halloween i was the flying nun. it was weird, but i've always been a sally field fan so it was a tribute lol. on the 30th, i attended a party held by my friend tracie in her apartment. it was fun. this weird kid who was dressed as a friar kept talking to me though. he was strange. there were some hot guys there too...only they were there with their girlfriends. but overall i had a really good time...although i did fall asleep at allen st. hardware which was the bar that we went to around midnight after a bunch of tracie's party guests left. i wish i wasn't so tired...i just can't party like i used to. i feel so old.

about school...i'm still doing horrible in physics. i hate it. organic chem is going great though, i am getting an A in it. woohoo!

lastly...my RIP section...

RIP to my friend Sarah's aunt who died last week of cancer that spread to her brain :(

RIP to Theresa...a girl who i knew when i was younger...our parents are friends...her body was found this week in Las Vegas in a construction site. Someone killed her and dumped her body there. It makes me want to vomit. I hate people. :(