I was the one worth leaving...

So yeah...life has been interesting lately, work has been too...I don't even want to talk about it...but I do have some good quotes from a few songs by "The Postal Service" that have some meaning for me lately....

"i had a dream that everything was exactly how it seems...concerns about the world getting warmer- people thought that they were just being rewarded for treating others as they'd like to be treated, for obeying stop signs and curing diseases, for mailing letters with the address of the sender- now we can swim any day in november. don't wake me i plan on sleeping in..."

"sleeping in"- the postal service

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"will someone please call a surgeon who will crack my ribs and repair this broken heart?...i can't accept that it's over and I will guard the door like a goalie tending the net in the third quarter of a tie game rivalry...so just say how to make it right and I swear I'll so my best to comply. Tell me am I right to think that there could be nothing better than slowly growing old together?"

"nothing better"- the postal service

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"I've been waiting since birth to find a love that would look and sound like a movie...I want so badly to believe that there is truth and love that's real and I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd"

"clark gable"- the postal service

I hope that you enjoyed those...I just have been so down lately...I am so disappointed that I didn't get into Vet school and I just don't know what I'm going to do. I kind of like the uncertainty of it all, but at the same time I can't stand it...it makes me sick at times. I think it's because I'm such a planner and I didn't plan for this. So in an attempt to make my life better career & self-esteem wise, I have an appointment on Tuesday with an admissions counselor at Daemen College to see what I would need to take to teach either middle school science or high school Biology...so I guess I'll see after that. Anyway...all I know is that I truly believe that I cannot stay a vet tech my whole life and that makes me sad...

I rented "Prime" with Meryl Streep & Uma Thurman...it was fucking hillarious!!!!! Meryl was awesome...she totally made the whole movie the kookie funny flick that it was...you all have gotta see it. "Jarhead" was good too...it makes me look at the military and the people who serve differently...like there is this animal in all of us that is only exposed in times of extreme stress like war...but I LOVE Jake Gyllenhaal (sp??)...he is HOT!!!...he was awesome in "Brokeback Mountain" too...and I just rented "Walk the Line" today but I haven't watched it yet...I'll have to let you know how that is in a later post...

So I went for hydro therapy for my knee last week and it helped me...I was kinda skeeved out by the pool though...as I stepped into the pool I realized that it was like 10000000 degrees which means that it was a bacteria soup...yuck...and there were bandaids floating in the water which made me want to vomit (I haven't gotten sick yet so I think I'm ok)...then the athletic trainers told me that I was their youngest patient ever and that they were glad that I was there which was kewl...lol...so then they had me strap this belt thing with a floatation device on it to myself and then they clipped me to the side of the pool and made me walk with the resistance of being clipped to the side of the pool. so some of the old people felt the need to make jokes about my prediciment...I felt like I was on an episode of frickin' Seinfeld!!! One old guy that could hardly swim walked by me and said, "HAHA they have you on a short leash there, haha!" and then an old lady swam by and was like, "HAHAHA you are walking very fast but not getting anywhere!!!" I felt like saying to them, "you are old and fat and can hardly swim...HAHAHAHA"...I mean I wasn't bothering them and I was embarassed to be there as it is and they had to make jokes and try and be funny...lol...it really was funny though...what wasn't funnt though is the fact that right before I was about to get out of the pool, this man came out of the men's locker room and stepped right into the pool with his flip flops on...EEEWWWW...that means that all of the sludge from the men's locker room floor was transferred into the pool....gross...

So my dad bought a mini pack of tickets for some Sabres games and we have gone to games vs the Boston Bruins (Sabres won), the Toronto Maple Leafs (Sabres won) and the Ottowa Senators (Sabres lost...crappy game). Below are some pictures from the first game that we went to against the Bruins...I bought a black practice jersey with a big Sabres logo on it at that game...so I now have an official item of clothing that I wear to the games...woohoo!
Anyway, out of the 18,000 people that attended the Sabres vs. Bruins game that night, I had to get stuck sitting next to a huge annoying Canadian man that felt the need to bring his 1 year old frickin' daughter to the game!! The child in question was sitting on this man's lap too...squirming all over the place, throwing ripped paper on the lady in front of us, hitting my bad knee with her little velcro sneaker clad foot and spilling popcorn and dripping ice cream all over the place. I really thought that I'd be married at 25 and want kids before I turn 30...but let me tell you...I am going to wait on the kid thing a long while...I mean I want them, but sometimes I think they are soooooo annoying...and actually I am more mad that this child's dumb ass father felt the need to bring her to the game and annoy the people around him than at the kid...I mean she is just a baby...he is an adult, however, with blatent disregard for others...which is really par for the course these days, so I don't even know why I am surprised!!! errrr! The game was good though...so that kind of made up for the aggrevation!

You can also see some pictures below from a night out with "the girls" from work...Heather, Michelle, Rachel, Holly & Jayd. It was a fun night, but even though I had fun, I was still down...I actually think I cried on the way home from the bar...weird I know.
Lastly you can see 2 pictures of my dog, Travis and my neighbor's dog, Honey...they always sniff each other through the fence that my neighbor put up and I think it's kind of cute so I snapped a few pictures.

The day after these photos were taken though I had quite a scare with Travis...I woke up as I normally do at 5:45am and I discovered that Travis had crapped in the hallway and kitchen, which he never does...then I took him outside and he was restless, panting and hunched over and could hardly walk...his abdomen was really tense too...so I gave him all of his meds and then he decided to walk into his kennel which he hasn't gone into in like 2 years...I was sure that he was going to die that day...I even prayed to god which I hardly ever do for him to take Travis if he wa suffering and for him not to keep him on this earth for my own selfish reasons (for those of you who don't know...Travis turned 15 years old on March 1st & he has terrible hips and very weak back legs with muscle atrophy, so I didn't bring him into work for a DVM to look at him because of these things b/c there is nothing that they can do to make him better that I am not already doing and he is more comfortable at home)...I was sobbing and almost threw up on the way to work that day. Thank god I was scheduled in surgery and with Heather & Jeanne no less...I was so happy for that so it made my day more bearable and they helped to get me in a good mood...so when I went home that day I was expecting to find my poor Travis dead...but instead I found him sleeping in his normal spot in the hallway outside of my bedroom ready to be taken on a walk outside...and walk we did...we walked down the street further than we have walked in like 6 months to a year!!! I was so happy...and Travis has been feeling good ever since that afternoon...I don't know what was wrong with him, and I guess I never will and I don't care, as long as he is ok now...

That's all for now...I hope ya'll enjoyed my posts after having nothing of mine to read for so long!! Let me know what you think about my posts and pictures...I know that you were all crying because you missed my awesome blog updates!!